..inside my battleground..

Other things
I'll edit this later. Just got some things to attend to first. *sigh*
Other Interesting Links
I thought I should keep the following links. They might be of use to me later.

  • Antique Classic Car
  • Baby Store
  • Tech and Gadget
  • Jewelry Buying Guides
  • Mini Cooper Car
  • Auto Part
  • Movie Music Reviews
  • Cancer
  • Skin Blog
  • Trade Show Exhibition
  • Home Office Furniture
  • Digital Cameras
  • Car Interior
  • Printer and Accessories
  • Shoes
  • MLB Fan Gear
  • NASCAR Fan Gear
  • Monitors & Projectors
  • Other Links
    ++Baseball Almanac
    ++Fast Pass TV
    ++Heartbeat of the Bronx
    ++Nietzsche: Beyond Good and Evil
    ++One Manga
    ++Twilight Coven Philippines forum
    ++Philippine Nurse
    Other things
    *Chan Robles Virtual Law Library
    *Corpus Juris
    *The 1987 Philippine Constitution
    Other things
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    Wednesday, 30 April 2008
    Staying sane while waiting for freedom
    Photobucket I wonder what would've happened to me if I don't know God. If God is not in my life, I'd be a total wrecked and crushed person. I might even be an absolute damage.

    A friend of mine told me to surrender my concern to God like what a friend of ours did. Yes, I've been surrendering it. I just don't know if I have really done so, completely. He doesn't know the situation I am in so he doesn't understand how I surrender this concern. It's ok though. I'm doing better than before.

    Another friend of mine told me to just confess. The heck. I think I'd rather die. LOL. Kidding, mehn! I believe I don't mind confession stuff. I just want to be sure that if I do, it's already over. Or if there's a place where I can run to and hide myself, I might do so. But then if that's what I have in mind, what is the point of confessing? Some things are just worth keeping, even 'til the grave.

    With all these stuff I am going through, I wonder what will become of me in the future. I hope it will help me become a better person each day and will equip me in my profession-to-be. And I pray that this experience has brought me knowledge, wisdom and understanding.

    I am looking forward to the day when I will be given with an offer I can never refuse; on the day I am free to give what I've always wanted to give.

    The Corrs - All the Love in the World
    posted by JenShinrai @ 10:21:00 am   0 comments
    Tuesday, 29 April 2008
    I want to see YOU face to face..

    78b191751833839a3b132b0058d13866.gifI sometimes want to see God (face to face) and ask Him some personal questions. I want to know what He wants me to learn. I want to know how to let go of some things in life. I know I told God that I won't ask of Him a particular thing. I gave it up weeks ago. It still hurts. It'd be a lie if I say it doesn't hurt. I may not feel the pain in my heart, but it hurts somewhere else. I am fine with that. Heart-san has been hurt a lot and I don't want him to take any more pain. It's not healthy for him.

    I've always wanted to have something to make me forget it. But it's not easy. I even sometimes feel that something's getting stronger. Too bad, I can't express enough so I have to show it somewhere else. I am actually trying to think of a proper term for it. It is either sublimation or displacement without the negative attribute.

    There's a movie that I want to watch because I'm intrigued with the plot. I hope I can watch it. But more than that, I really want to get over some things I am having a hard time forgetting. Losh. I know I am a forgetful person, but there are just some things that I could hardly forget no matter what I do.

    Father in heaven, if it is Your will, I want to see Core soon. If it pleases You, please allow me to be with him. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.

    now playing:
    OLIVIA - If You Only Knew
    posted by JenShinrai @ 5:36:00 am   0 comments
    Sunday, 27 April 2008
    Emotional pain in my throat.

    Wilson was right. Emotional pain sometimes manifests through physical pain. It sucks. I had DOB and hyperventilation because of that thing. The initial reaction was a little spasm in my throat. It sucks!!

    I never thought I'd still have a reaction about some things. Dad, I need you. T_T

    now playing:
    Cocco - Jukai no Ito

    posted by JenShinrai @ 6:31:00 am   0 comments
    Saturday, 19 April 2008
    Upset.. Frittata.. Dishes.. Dutch
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    Oh my Gackt. I made it here with just one try! *happy*

    I usually have to check my e-mail and change settings just to get into this blog. But this time, I got it right with just one shot. Kewlness!

    I really haven't updated in this blog because of username and password problems. And I bloody hate it.

    There are lots of things lurking in my mind right now. I'm supposed to be sleeping right now because I have class later at 7 in the morning. Not that I'm miss being online, but I am so upset I feel the need to vent out in my blog. Blogs, actually. I hate it. I'm really upset with a friend of mine.

    Enough of that crap.

    I want to cook. I did cook for my dinner last night. I made a Pechay Frittata. It wasn't good enough and I still have to practice. By the way, Frittata is an Italian omelette. I have known such dish because of Lifestyle Network. I love that channel.

    I know I won't learn to make any Filipino dishes any time soon so I'm going overseas and look for easy dishes. I'm going to try a Dutch dish one of these days. *excited*

    posted by JenShinrai @ 3:36:00 am   0 comments
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