I'm having a hard time thinking of what to do. Yeah, first things first. But I'm not talking about such thing. It's... personal. To go or not to go? My hypothalamus says go and leave. But my frontal lobe says otherwise. It seems like these two organs have switched their functions. How uncanny!
*I want to have a life.
*I want to start over again.
*I don't want to take burden/s with me. (Talking about hurt feelings here.)
Sounds like I've just had a break up or about to have one.
Why not leave?
*There's no one to watch out..
*Sadness might come any time..
*It's mean to do so. I can't stand to leave a friend.
I look like Allison Cameron.
I guess I'll just hang around for the mean time. "We're colleagues." Foreman. I guess I can stand that. Maybe I'm just hurt. Like what I say to my friend, "Never decide at night." It's an Arab proverb.
Shagadelic. I'm miserable.
If it wasn't for what happened recently, I'd say I regret knowing this friend. Hey, I'm still a friend. Nothing changes. It just seems to be one-sided friendship. Doesn't actually matter to me. But it makes me feel say, "Hey! You've got a friend here. You need help? I'm here."
Nakashima Mika - Ai Shiteru