..inside my battleground..

Other things
I'll edit this later. Just got some things to attend to first. *sigh*
Other Interesting Links
I thought I should keep the following links. They might be of use to me later.

  • Antique Classic Car
  • Baby Store
  • Tech and Gadget
  • Jewelry Buying Guides
  • Mini Cooper Car
  • Auto Part
  • Movie Music Reviews
  • Cancer
  • Skin Blog
  • Trade Show Exhibition
  • Home Office Furniture
  • Digital Cameras
  • Car Interior
  • Printer and Accessories
  • Shoes
  • MLB Fan Gear
  • NASCAR Fan Gear
  • Monitors & Projectors
  • Other Links
    ++Baseball Almanac
    ++Fast Pass TV
    ++Heartbeat of the Bronx
    ++Nietzsche: Beyond Good and Evil
    ++One Manga
    ++Twilight Coven Philippines forum
    ++Philippine Nurse
    Other things
    *Chan Robles Virtual Law Library
    *Corpus Juris
    *The 1987 Philippine Constitution
    Other things
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    Sunday, 2 July 2006
    Hide Me
    Eagle's Wings

    Here I am waiting

    Abide in me I pray
    Here I am longing
    For You

    Hide me in Your love
    Bring me to my knees
    May I know Jesus
    More and more

    Come live in me
    All my life
    Take over
    Come breathe in me
    I will rise
    On eagles wings

    For the past week, I've been feeling down and troubled. I've been so pessimist and enclosed in a hurting shell I wanted to leave. I wanted to leave everything and everyone behind. Though it doesn't totally mean leaving them nor forgetting them. I just want to be back of who I was: a loner; a maverick.

    I wanted to see them no more until last Saturday. I held on to the little hope I saw. I still remember on that day I told myself to back off. I was not required to be there. But I still left to be there. I hoped everything will be fine.

    It did become fine BUT just for a split moment. Only two people, I guess, were able to see me frown that way. I didn't want to do so. But I don't know. And I've hurt a friend. I am no good. That was such a $#!+. How could've I hurt a friend who just tried to cheer me up. That was what I needed! I needed someone to cheer me up even just for a minute.

    I left the place with no trace of happiness or smile in my face. I couldn't even do a devilish smile. All that was on my face was sorrow. I almost shed tears while walking my way through the parking area of the mall.

    Am I really capable of leaving them behind? I said I won't leave. I shall stay. If I will leave, it doesn't mean I am erasing you from my life. But I am erasing myself from your lives. I shall stay for the sake of the one who appointed me. I shall stay and do my job. Until I have such reasons for staying, I'll keep logged in.

    This is not about dan. It's about me. I am losing something of me and I want to retrieve it. There's only one thing I wish. May none of those from the dan read this. May none of them know what happened to me.
    posted by JenShinrai @ 10:18:00 pm  
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